Wednesday, March 11, 2009

"Let your beat go on forever,
They say we are made to live as one
Let this need to fear eachother, Not be passed on to my son
let your beat go on forever
let your fears down rivers run
Let the silence be the music, when the words are said and done..."


Purim: Israel is the only place in the world that all children get a 3 day vacation for. It is the only place where purim, as far as I know is celebrated for a whole week or even better... a entire month. Is the only place where I have seen the most creative creations for costumes in my 23 years of life. Purim I have come to find is by far one of the more interesting holidays. Can't say i completely understand the whole idea behind it, but i guess its a mitzvah to drink until you have lost all senses.
Should i feel guilty that I did not get into the holiday that much, perhaps. I did a few things for it. Afula had this huge carnival/ fair in the center of the city and i was pretty in awe with it. I did not dress up though. It is not that I do not like to party, but i guess since i never celebrated puriim before this year I found it hard to get into it. It was fun to see everyones costumes though, the city really got into and it was kind of exciting to see. I felt like i really was experiencing something in Israel that I could not see in the United States. To Tell you the truth, Purim here is way cooler then Halloween at home.

Considering I work with only children, I was surprised with a 3 day, which turned into a 4 day vacation! Happy Purim to me! Vacation for purim? Thats new to me.
I made pretty good use of my vacation execept for the actual day of purim, where apparently I did not receive the mitzvah of hearing the migillah reading...woops.

Monday Jess and I took a little tiyul (trip) to go hike up Mount Tevor. It was a beautiful day and I'm so happy I decided to go. I need something like that in my life to make me feel like i'm not wasting my time here. I guess we did not anticipate the diffiuculty of the hike, because it was hard and well... i'm out of shape. Everything about it the was beautiful, it is these kind of trips that make me realize and remember how much i love Israel. There is something really refreshing about open space, fields, nature and mountains. Somehow this supposed 30 minute hike took two hours or more. We took the wrong the path and were kind of wandering around the mountain for awhile. As we got closer to the end what did we find, well a heard of wild cows....and their children. Now how often do i walk around michigan and find random wild heards of cows? pretty much...never. Being pretty uneducated about wild cows, jess and i decided we should find out if it was ok to go near them. There was no way to keep going with out being inches away. So we called my friend who informed us that no...wild cows are not dangerous and to just not pet them.

By the time we got to the top of the mountain i was exhausted, we skipped the church at the time and hitched a ride with a sherut going back down with some catholic people from england, here for a pilgramage of sorts. They were absoltutly appaled that we didn't go to the church. We get to the bottom and a group of nigeran tourists try to push their way on to the sherut. Apparently they didn't understand you have to let people off first, so i'm trying to get off this bus and they are pushing me as they shove their way on. A little fact for the day....The nigerian government pays for it citizens to come to Israel once in their lifetime. The rumore has it that they make a lot of money from oil that pays for this. Is this true? don't entirely know.

Today! I took my first small road trip in Israel. It was quite exhilirating. I went with erica and rehut, her host sister and it was a lot of fun. Its a rare occasion that i go long distances in an actual car. I sometimes wonder if i can even still drive after 6 months of not stepping into the drivers side of the car. ERica and I had interviews at save a childs heart and then spent the rest of the day at the beach. Today was also a beautiful day!

Recently I watched this movie called the Bubble....First I want to say i recemend it. Second, i have been thinking about the title. The Bubble. It takes place in tel aviv, and in some ways I can see the idea behind it being a bubble. To come from Afula to Tel aviv in one day, you almost your not living in the same country. Life in Tel Aviv always just continues on, with no realization of life outside of the city. you could live in Tel aviv and barely know whats going on in the south Near gaza, or in the north...





Friday, February 27, 2009

"Are you making Alliyah?".....

Life happens when your busy making other plans ~John Lennon~

A crossroad has been reached after more then a half of year of life in Israel. I beleive I have gone through every emotion I could have gone through being here. From absolute happiness to wishing I was on a plane to go home last week. During October I recall thinking I had fallen in Love with Israel and I as i faced the many challenges of living here I think that feeling has grown stronger. There were times i wished i could just go home for 5 minutes and see all my friends and for daily life to be simple again. But with anything or anyone you love, there is obstacles that you face. You become angry with them, they make you sad and confused but at the end of the day you still love them and feel connected. Thats how I feel about Israel.


Now is a point in the year where I have to make decisons. Do I go along with my orginal plan I had when i signed up to come here or do I make a bold and maybe unwise move and change everything. This is where the crossroad comes in, what kind of decision do i make. My brother once told me about this concept that humankind is the only species on earth that has the ability to think about the future. There is a part of the brain that has the ability to daydream about the future and think about will happen. With this though, sometimes the things that you think you want in the future are really the things you want right now in the present. In the future I would like to travel the world, but the reality is I wish I was traveling the world right now.

And as John Lennon once said, "Life happens while your busy making other plans." Now I have reached this crossroad and need to make a choice. There is nothing I can do about going home in July because my cousin is getting married but I don't really want to go. As thoughts of next year consume me, I have realized I need to remember that quote. While I sit here making my future plans, life goes by and you forget to look at the mountains as you drive by them. Or you speed walk through a crowd of people with out noticing their faces. Think about how much your actually missing when your constantly thinking about the future. It is ok to think about tomorrow, but it is also important to take in whats happening today. To take advantage of the good things in front of you.

I have a long time until I have to go home but time flies. It seems like yesterday that I moved out of Be'er Sheva but it was 3 month ago. It seems like a week ago that I moved to Israel but it has already been 6 months! I wish in some ways I could have both of each worlds. That I could go back to the United States but then come back here to try living here. OTZMA is great but I do not think its real life at all. My life style here is just not normal. I go to work every day but it is very different then working at home. I don't have a car, I don't pay bills and actually I do not get paid. Would I still love Israel as much if I was just a regular person and no longer the "מתנדבת" (volunteer). Life is just not a program.

With that... 6 new things that have become a part of my life since I left the United States
1. I light shabbos candles now with my roommates
2. I celebrate holidays that I never have celebrated before in the States
3. I found a love for art and drawing and it has become a important part of my life
4. I have become really good at boggle and catch phrase
5. I know longer speak just english...but i'd call in Heblish. Why? Because I find that when I'm speaking english I somehow subconciously add in hebrew words. like, כן, לא, מה נשמה?, אני לא יודעת, נכון...etc
6.

Monday, February 23, 2009

Yalla...

"If I am not for myself, who will be for me?
And If I am only for myself, what am I?
And if not now, when?"
-Pirket Avot

ONE
They all seem to think that they are obeying the call of duty

Don't they k now that the only duties to be called up are
Ghandhi's doctrine
John Lennon's "imaginge"
Bob Marley's, "Redemption"

Haven't they figured out that we are all One
and the same like
The Trinity
The Star of David
The pilgrimage to Mecca

Don't they know that there is only One who cradles us,
but communicates to us in different scriptures.

Why don't they know?

---- taken from... Yalla----

Thursday, February 19, 2009

What I have Mono???!!!

Actually I don't have mono, but when you can't communicate with your doctor these are the conclusions that come of it.

I am beginning to realize what kind of barriars and struggles are created from people not knowing the same language universally. Going to the Docter should be a simple task right? It should not be so hard to understand your docters diagnosis but now what if that diagnosis is in a different language and your unable to understand completely what they say? Now this is a problem, and a problem that i experienced the other day.

I started being sick on Monday, and tuesday i diagnosised myself as better to be mistakenly wrong when around 4 or 5 pm my temprature shot up to 102.5 degrees Farenheight. In israel I have to cal my insurance company before I can go to the docter, which i did. There were no docters in Afula that i could go to so I decided to have a docter ordered to come to my home in the student dorms. One of the werider things i've experienced here. In the States I have never heard of ordering a docter to your home.

So here is the other problem...You have (or i had) a 102.5 fever but your docter only knows celcious and is unable to understand the significance of your fever. Not only that I didnt' know how to convert to celcious. So thats the first big barrair. I come from a country that wants to be special by being the only country that uses Farenheight.

Lastly, The docter comes in and I ask if she speaks english (in hebrew) and she says (in hebrew) I speak only russian and hebrew. Well obviously I dont speak russian, and although i can speak hebrew, i do not do well in high stress situations or when i'm not feeling good. She starts checking me, can't figrue out what 102.5 *F means and then procedes to diagnosis and treat me in only hebrew. Being flustered I have no idea what she is telling me. I mean this is a huge problem. I'm sick and the docter sent to me is telling me there is something wrong and I can't understand her because we speak different languages. Finally i get hillary to translate to me and in confusion I think the docter is telling me i have mono!! So then i get upset because i'm thinking how can the docter know this , she barely checked me. But then hillary says the docter says i have a throat disease. At this point i'm very upset, because she uses the word disease and thats a scary word. In the end it turns out i have a throat virus but how can you trust the diagnois from a person you can only understan through the translation of your roomate?? Very frustrating.

I have never been so frusrated to not be fluent in hebrew. But in a time of need all you wish for is that people just spoke your language. I guess thats what i get for deciding to move to a country where i'm not fluent in the language. Now i have something to laugh about later....

Tuesday, February 3, 2009

A world where bomb sheltors become the playground...

For the ones that do not know and still read this... I do not live in Be'er Sheva anymore. As of one month ago i live in a small town called Afula. Or as the Israelis call it, "The hole at the end of the ruler." it is like no other place I have ever lived before and from outside of where I live you can see mountains, or hills. Literally i live in the middle of no where, theres no night life here and not much to do at all. Today we discovered a small take out place that has sushi. My four roomates are Hillary from conneticut, Erica from Flordia and Jessica who is also from Michigan. We live in student dorms for the college Emeq israel and we live with 200 students. We haven't met everyone but we have made some friends.

I volunteer in 4 different places. Twice a week i work in a community center, twice a week i work with a program called ATIDIM and i am going to teach debate to high school students to help them with there english. Two mornings a week i go to another city called Mgdal Hemit and I volunteer in a high school with Jessica. We work in the english center and we also are teaching different lessons to students. Then once a week i go with jessica to Nazrait Illit and we work in a elementary school. I find it pretty rewarding and i like it better then when i was in be'er sheva but sometimes i still think i should be doing more.

Right now all otzma particpants are in the cities they should be in , accept asqkelon just moved to their city yesterday. I found out they were worken up this morning at 7 am by a siren and had to run for cover. If i heard right the rocket hit so close they could feel the imact from when it hit the ground. Kind of scary and i'm wondering what will happen with them. I think they are taking a chance by being there because its hard to tell what is going to happen and exspecially after the israeli elections on tuesday if anything is going to happen.

Speaking of elections...I was in jerusalem this past weekend i saw the most ridiculous thing. Since the elections are on Tuesday there are posters all over the place with the canadiates pictures on them. Right now Tzipi livni is running for kadima so she has her picture all over the place, and even though its just a drawing somebody took paint and drew all over her face so you couldn't see it.


Yesterday I got back from a 5 day seminar called "Conflict and Hope." We spent the entire five days discussing the conflict in Israel, the occupation of the West Bank and the war in Gaza. I'm not entirely sure how to describe the last 5 days but they were very signficant to my OtZMA experience. I began to realize how much I don't know, and i dont know if i'd say it changed my perspective but i left feeling a little bit more pestimistic then i was before. So where the hope comes in , i'm not sure. But i learned a lot that made me lose a lot of faith in the world. I left feeling saddened that people could hate eachother so much. And I wish i knew what it is that i could to do to create change. I used to think all change was possible but I think this is a time that i dont feel confident saying that.

Since I do not know how describe it to you.. i'm going to leave you with quotes i wrote down from people and thoughts i wrote down throughout the weekend. In hopes you can get a small perspective to what was going on and how it was signficant.. I spent time in jerusalem but i spent shabbos in a small settlement in the west bank called Tackoa and then i spent sunday in Sderot.

Jan 29th Thursday
Topic: The Israeli Arab Conflict - Intro and Backround

on the subject of land for peace..
"Two withdrawls Gaza and from a security area in Lebanaon, has led to attacks back on israelis..."

Topic: The zionist attitude Towards Arabs Prior to 1948 in Israel

Topic: When fighers turn pacifist and their vision of Peace
Speaker: Combantants for peace
* Two speakers, one a past member of fatah who was caught trying to plan a car bomb and a past israeli soilder who was kicked out of his unit when he refused to serve in the west bank

Jan 30th Land vs Peace
Topic Land vs Peace? A perspective from the Left
Speaker: Peace Now
Peace now beleives that without negotiations on Jerusalem there will not be peace and is for a 2 state solution

Topic: Land vs. Peace: a perspective from the Right in the West Bank
Speaker: Eve harrow
"When it comes to religion all rationality goes out the door
"They Say : we hate israel because they took our land.."
Israel gives back land for peace and then nothing comes out of it
"Should people still be considered refuggees generations later? Why should refugee status be passed down. That means all jews kicked out of their country are refugees too"

Topic: Foreign Press Coverage of the conflict and life on the other side of the green line
"Foreign medias predisposed to the favor of the palistinians"
"When your sitting abroad watching foreign news your not seeing the human side"

Feb 1st- Sderot
* Why do we have to wait for kindergarden to be hit by a missile full of childeren, to get international support.."
"what does it mean to have 15 seconds to run for your life?"







Thoughts from Jan 30 - Feb 2nd
Given the backround of the conflict and the perspectives of different peace group and individuals...

The situation is more complex then I imagined. yesterday we saw that a palestinatn and israeli could be friends even though they differed on certain perspectives.
Why don't people realize that hate is bred on both sides, whether ones more extreme then the other is, its still hate. And with hate the situation doesn't cease to exhist.

Jan 30 -31st Day in the West bank/ shabbot in Tackoa
"Today I traveled in a bullut proof bus into the west bank..."
The only thing that made me realize I was somewhere out of the ordinary was that people were caring guns around with them. When i thought settlement, Tackoa was not what i had pictured in mind. Its a beautiful place, with nice homes and friendly people.
I don't think I know enough to give an objective opinon the conflict. I can't decide who is right or who is wrong. These people here don't seem violent or crazy, they just seem like normal people who want to live their life on land that israel captured during war. Isn't that how war works? But then i think about the occupation.. and as another speaker said "With land comes people.." So what about the other side, why should they be forced to live their life under occupation? maybe some want to live i peace too..

I find myself becoming more pestimistic and losing my faith in the world, the more exposed I am to the hate and to the stories of violent acts driven by hatred.
Today we heard a speaker who told his personal story about the death of his son. In 2001, 2 14 year old boys were stoned to death in a cave near Tackoa by palestinians. So brutal they were not recognizable. What kind of person can justify this?

Where is there an end? Will there be an end? How can they even meet in the middle? When hate is present can there be peace? What comes first, comprimise or learning to like eachother and get along?

...and you begin to lose hope when the side that is supposed to work together can't even agree with eachother...

Feb 1 - Sderot
...Its crazy to think that right now i am looking over from sderot to Gaza. Think i'm looking over to a place full of suffering but a place where people are planning attacks on the very land i'm standing on right now. All i can see are buildings ut I know these buildings represent greif, teror, suffering, hatred, conflict, saddness..."

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"The moent you go back and you realize as jews wea re family and not just friends then you'll realize יהיה בסדר (it will be ok)."

Monday, January 19, 2009

• Statistics of Kassam rocket and mortar fire from the Gaza Strip

Total rocket attacks:

Since the first rocket fell on Israel on 16 April 2001: 4,067
Since the Israeli withdrawal from the Gaza Strip in August 2005: 3,484
Since the Hamas takeover of Gaza in mid-June 2007: 2,046
Last year (2008): 1,571

Mortar bomb hits since April 2001: 4,183


Here are my thoughts. Imagine a person stood next to you and continuously poked you every day for 8 years. How would that make you feel? Imagine you kept telling them to stop but they kept doing it, should you be able to react? This is a horrible comparison, now change this to, imgaine someone was shooting rockets into your back yard for 8 years. Three to ten times a day a siren goes off and y ou have to run to a bomb sheltor, or all of your children, including you suffer from post tramatic stress syndrome. Not only that but now your children have to go to school in the bomb sheltor, how would that make you feel?

It has been three weeks since the war in the south started. With a cease fire declared, hamas still continues to shoot rockets into Israel. The question i'm continuously asked is , "What do you think about the War in Gaza" or what they also tried to call it "the operation." Luckily i moved out of Be'er Sheva a couple weeks before everything started, but why did the idea of rockets hitting there still make me feel very unsettled and terrified. After three months living somewhere you make connections, and the people being affected begin to have faces, emotions and life. I beleive that Israel made the right decision to finally stand up for themselves, and let Hamas know that rocket fire across the border is unacceptable. As a country, and a nation, they have the right to live in peace. At the same time, a lot of suffering occured in Gaza and it shouldn't be ignored. Was the suffering because of Israel or is it because Hamas leaders were letting their citizens suffer. All the blame shouldn't be put on israel because it shouldn't be forgotten that Hamas is a terrorist organization.

Being here during all this I think has given me a perspective that i never would have had otherwise. I have never lived in a country at war before, but from every experience you learn and grow and begin to understand the world a little bit better. When everything started I was in Istanbul with three friends. Before I even knew, Dana and I stood and watched a protest in the middle of Taxim Square but with everything in Turkish we didn't know what it was about. When we went back to our hostel we asked the hostel manager what the protest was about. In his words, "Crazy Israel, killed 160 children." and the protest was people protesting against israel. Later i found out this was not true, but i was horrified. I kept thinking to myself, how could israel do that. Even to find out that the guy had be mistaken did not make me feel less unsettled. Why? Purely because he had such a distorted view of what happened. For three weeks after that i began to learn how effective the media is at not giving all the news and only telling part of a story. If Hamas had anything, they had the ability to use the media to their advantage. All i was hoping that somehow people could hear the real story, understand the reasons behind the IDF's deployment into Gaza. Instead what i saw was protests across the world against Israel and a rise of anti semitism.

I hope that everything really does begin to calm down but I am happy that i am here still. A lot of people wanted to know if i was staying, but it would have been ridiculous for me to go home. In the States i would have felt disconnected to the war and i would have not had the chance to talk with israeli citizens about their feelings and their opinions. It is experiences like that , that i think has shaped my perspective, and see as this a really crucial aspect of my life.

Thursday, November 27, 2008

"To understand a culture..you must first learn their language.."

Every year the North American and Israeli Jewish Communities hold a conference called the General Assembly. This year the General Assembly of 2008 was held in Israel, in Jerusalem. Otzma was lucky enough to have the opportunity to attend it this year. Although going into it i had no idea what it was, in the end I really appreciate the fact that i did get this opportunity. The general assembly has people attend from north america (u.s.a and canada) and from Israel, and they come together to talk about different topics that have to do with the Jewish Community, the next generation, israel, etc. This year I was told that less people attended due to the financial crisis in the United States but at the same time there was still 4500 people in Jerusalem for the conference.

The first day of it we were full particpants and attended the Next Gen day, which was the first one ever held. There was 800 young jewish people between the ages of 20 and 40, from north america and Israel and it included soilders from the IDF. It started at Yad Vashem where we heard people talk and then we all split up onto different buses and they took us to see different organizations in Israel. Interestingly enough I ended up on the bus that went to see TEVA. Which is a pharmacutical company and although might have been interesting for some people, i was a little bored by it. I met some really cool people though, some from Israel, some who had made alliyah and some who were here on different types of programs.

That night was the opening of the GA and the Prime Minister Ehud Omert spoke to everyone. Although he really isn't that popular here, i was really excited that I got to hear him speak. In college I took a Israeli Politics and Society course, and although one of the more difficult course i had in college, it was one of my favorite ones. It really is an interesting experience for me to see and hear from people that i read about and learned about in a classroom. I can not exactly remember what he really talked about but he did give a shoutout to OTZMA. That was really exciting.

Throughout the G.A. we heard a lot of other speakers that I was really surprised to be hearing. We heard from President Shimon Peres, Defense Minister Ehud Barak, Leader of the Likud Party Benjamin Netanyahu and the new Leader of the Kadima Party, Tipsi LIvni who spoke about Tikkun Olam. I would say the best speaker was the leader of the Likud party but at the same time i'm pretty sure he was giving us his campagin speech. Which would have been great if i had the ability to vote in Israel.

On the 2nd day of the G.A. all of the particpants had signed up for different buses to go on trips around Israel. the point of it was to see the different projects the federations help fund throughout Israel. Since OTZMA particpants volunteered that morning to help get people onto buses we got an awesome opportunity to get onto any bus that had room and join a trip. I would have to say this was one of the best days and experiences i had durig the general assembly. I got lucky enough to get on a bus that was going to Sderot and areas near the Gaza Strip, an opportunity that because of security reasons I couldn't have done with OTZMA. We got the ok from the office and i joined the bus with Eilan, Erica, the ilanas, sara, rena, and justine and particpants that came from many different areas in the U.S. Since we were going to a area that had been hit by rockets the last 10 days before, we had to sign a waver to even get on the bus. The idea of danger I do not really think processed in my head until we got there, so at the time I was not very worried.

Why was this day so signficant to me you might ask? After that experience I think i began to really understand what the people living there are going through. Its not the same to read about a situation in a newspaper or hear it on tv, rather then talking with the ones affected by it on a daily basis. It gives you a whole new perspective and you go from feeling disconnected from it to feeling like you really want to do something to help them. To sum it up though, the day was really depressing to me. When you go to places like this and you meet with people, for me it makes me feel sad for our society and the world. Its enough to already have to make it through daily life challenges but then on top of it these people who live there have to constantly fear rockets being shot into there cities. They have to fear that a rocket might hit there home or that they might not make it to a place to hide when the siren might go off.

When we got to Sderot they took us to this place that collects the rockets. While you walk there, it was noticable that not a lot of people were walking around outside. they showed us rockets that had hit the day before and rockets from the day before that. Pretty much every day they are getting hit by them. Many of the rockets are as they say "primitave." and these are the ones that are detectable but then there are these other ones that I guess they are getting from Iran that has no warning when they will hit. Apparently they are smuggling them over from egypt to the gaza strip. It was 10 days before this that rockets started coming over and since then there have been 107. the day before there was 13. that morning 4 had hit. since the year 2007 there had been 471. Except for that 3 month period where there was the cease fire and it was actually being kept, rockets have been coming over the border since the year 2001.

Can you imagine that? Imagine living somewhere, where every day for 8 years you live in fear that you could die from getting hit by a rocket? Its just so uncomprehendable and so sad all at t he same time. They say that people don't even really go outside anymore to do normal life activites that most people do on a daily basis. Kids don't really use the playgrounds anymore for fear a siren might go off. Most people only go outside to get from point A to Point B. Usually there is about 15 to 20 seconds to repond if a red siren goes off.

After they showed us the rockets and talked to us about them they brought us to see the trama center where they treat people for Post tramatic Stress Syndrome. Basically what we were told is that the type of PTSS they are dealing with is something different that is never seen anywhere else. Usually when people suffer from this its when an event begins and then ends but here there is no end. People have suffered every day for 8 years and they find it difficult to even treat it.

We heard a resident from Sderot talk to us about her experience living there and it was really emotional. She told us about how her house had been hit twice by rockets and that her children have nightmares because of fear. They can't even sleep by themsleves anymore. She said the 3rd time she experienced a rocket she was on the way to work and she couldn't get into hiding in time. She had to duck where she was and the rocket hit to close and she flew in the air where she then landed with a pile of concrete landing on top of her. In hopes to not upset her kids, they never told them what happened and said she was just sick in the hospital while she was recovering.

After the visit to sderot, where they also showed us where a rocket had hit last week... they took us to a moshav outside of Ashkelon. The Moshav is called Netiv Haasara and they told us that usually in the newspapers they never actually mention the name but rather call it a small jewish community. While in reailty they are also another place that every day gets hit by rockets because they are so close to the gaza strip. One of the woman that talked us told us she didn't think the situation was going to get any better, that before it could get better it would have to get worse. Not a really great thought, but i guess it is better to realistic sometimes to be prepared for a situation.


Me, Eilan, the Ilanas, erica, Justine, Sara, and Rena near the border of Gaza


Bomb Sheltor at Moshav I went to...


Many of the rockets that have hit sderot

The end of the day we met with people that were part of the disengagement of GusH Katif, which does not exhist anymore. I learned that 10,000 people were evacuated from their homes. Although the Government considered it to be a efficient evacuation, they left most people with no after plan. What my interpretation of it was that they evacuated everyone from their homes and then since then have done nothing to help them out. A lot of them had professions in the community even if they weren't qualified by paper for it. Even though they were a teacher all their life or a librarian for 25 years after the disengagement they couldn't get a job because they didn't have the right certificates. We heard three different women speak to us. They were part of this program call Job Katif that is funded by money from the federation system, and it has helped them get back on their feet and get jobs. The whole day in it self was really depressing but this for some reason hit me really hard. The third woman to speak started crying after her first sentence. Just seeing her get so upset about her life and what has happened to her made me cry to. It was really emotional, her entire life was turned around from the engagement. The saddest part about it is the organization is going to be out of money next year with no hope at the moment for secondary funding.

What was so signicant about this tiyul (trip) was meeting the people actually affected by these sad stories you might read in a newspaper. You feel more connected to the situation emotionally. What amazed me the most was how much the federation system actually does for people, and to see where these emergency funds were going to. I knew they did a lot for people the United States but there are so many great things being done here to.

The General Assembly ended that Wednesday and that Thursday I had another educational day with OTZMA. The day was called "Israeli Politics and Society." One of my favorite educational days so far. They took us to see the Knesset and talk with a member of the Kadima party. For me this, was soo exciting, it was exciting to see this place i learned so much about in college. I still remember the first time I had to read an article in class and I actually didn't even know what the Knesset was. I was really unknowledgeable about Israel. Now i look at myself, the things that i know, the people I met and its hard to beleive where I stood two years ago. For anyone who does not know what the Knesset is, it is Israels house of politics where all the decisions are made.

We met with a member of the kadima party while we were there, who was the first female general in the IDF. It really impacted my thoughts for the day. One thing she said that i think is important to share is "To understand a culture, you must first learn their langauge." Its this idea that you have to remember how much language can change a persons perspective. How can you really understand a culture when you don't understand the words they use to communicate. Definatly there is other ways to communicate but the point is, what do you do if the democracy means something different in one language compared to a next. It creates conflict, and its something to take in to consideration. In my Ulpan class the other day we talked about this. the fact that theres one word for snow in Israel but then in alaska there are many words for the word snow. I want to same its a simular idea. Words do a lot to change a context of situation, and a understanding of why people do one thing or another. Also in some languages they have words or phrases that aren't even translateable to the english language. Or words in the english language you can't translate to a different language...

Today was education day for "Israeli Politics and Society" part two. True story I went to a prison today. I have not even been to one in the United States before. We were forwarned to not wear tight pants, low cut shirts, or to touch anyone (guys or girls). Let me just say, although they have simular problems such as a cycle of crime, israeli prison system is really different. The one we went today people only stayed there for a max of 7 years and were there for i any crime you could think of. I am a little unsure of how to explain this prison, so i am going to leave it at that I went to prison today for the first time. Although I was tempted to stay because they receive vacations every month and tv's with cable, i decided that i'd rather be living in the outside world...

As for whats going on now... In a week and a half I move out of Be'er Sheva. Its hard to beleive i've been here for three months already. Tonight we are doing a big thanksgiving dinner with americans and some israelis and i think its going to be good. I am going to miss Be'er Sheva a little bit, i really feel like i live here now. Not only that now all the students have come back for school! It is werid to see so many more people around but now i'm leaving. After I leave Be'er sheva I will be moving to Sufat to do a program called Livnot. There is about 15 of us doing this and it revolves around hiking, volunteering and learning about judiasm in a more informal matter. It has more to do with spirtiuality and i'm really excited about it.